The Wildheart Knows

© Robin Easton – All Rights Reserved

Soul thrives on deep, mysterious shadows

The longer I live the more I shy away from cultural, familial, human/social expectations and edict. I listen more closely to my own wild heart yearnings and less to the push and pull of ‘shoulds’, ‘supposed to(s)’ and ‘have to(s)’.

Daily, I ask myself, "Where have I fallen asleep at the wheel?"

Although I lived years of my life in the wild, it is amazing how "seemingly" subtle, and yet, all pervasive and insidious is the illness of social shoulds, unspoken rules, score -keeping, and the "take-it-for-grantedness-of-how-it's-supposed-to-be" of human culture.

My years in the wild taught me that there are no rules, only the Laws of Nature, and even those are being tested, stretched and broken by Nature every single day.

This stretching, breaking and recreating creates infinite evolution...a forever changing, expanding universe...where blessed freedom is born. We are quite literally boundless.

I no longer let people tell me that something is wrong with me when I don't follow social edicts or norms. I honor that I am incredibly unique, sensitive, and aware, and that I do not need to be like those around me to be fully human and whole. Nor do they need to be like me.

Personally, I seem to need most of my days spent with Nature. I need lots of time alone to dream, wander and create...to let Love enter...in all of its forms. It is in these intimate moments that I return to my Source, my sustenance and truth, regardless of whether or not those around me understand me or even like my choice.

I am a very outgoing person and get on very well with people. I do public speaking, performing, and so on, and yet, I also am a deeply private person.

This seeming-paradox can be very confusing for people who know me, even for those who've known me for years. They often wonder, "How can she be so outgoing and yet so private?"

I am outgoing because I am not afraid of people and feel confident inside myself. However, there is so much of me that I keep sacred and personal, and that lies between me and Nature, between me and my Source. And it is this time with Source that gives me what I need to be in human-society.

My deepest self is most profoundly experienced in those intimate, still moments where I open my entire being and merge with other animals, with the trees, the water and air and distant stars.

Often, we are so busy filling up every single moment with busyness that there is no room left for Life to enter. It is hard for us humans to be still. We fear coming face-to-face with ourselves. And yet, if we allow this infinite vastness to overcome us, we realize that we are not what we think we are. We are so safe, loved, cherished, and watched over.

Sadly, we keep ourselves trapped in our safe known world and never venture into the Great Unknown. We fall asleep in our comfort zones, and let our own or other people's fears and social edict keep us from bravely venturing forth.

However, we must still give ourselves the experiences that feed our deepest yearnings, our very souls, even going so far as to seek them out. We can try things we've never done, feel things we've never felt. To experience Life is to discover who we really are. It is to discover our full potential.

We must expose ourselves to the experiences that imprint us with Life. We must take time out to be still, to be alone, to think freely, to act boldly...to let Life in.

(c) Robin Easton